from nothing ever: (+/-)
Michael Mc Aloran
...absent of…as if to say that it…false start begin again…begins again as if to say absent as if to say echo of...where there nothing there no not ever… arbitrary response of neither broken nor resolved... nothing voiced no not in distance known...colours of which erased merely as if to bail out momentarily were to illuminate...it transpires...rot or no not lapse voiced jaded passage through nowhere of... removal of...dismissal lapse unto follows after as if what once in splendor...no there where nothing there but passage emptily through empty dark...cold eye-limb it cannot otherwise of there what vocal of demonstrate of nothing ever-clad what dim as if to...yet still yet absent of...false start begin again...as if to say as if to echo of...never once broken splendor of demise cold colours claim of all...the matter what the...whereof...lapse... forget it forgotten of... merely as if to bail out stifled by way of extraction...rot or no not...ever there of nothing ever there...absent as if to say it all fall down...passage through nowhere once more the turn of blade in brutal meat...sudden white flash a...a surface glimpsed...suddenly as if to find it having forgotten whereof the trace taken from nor given balance...demise of splendor broken...absent traces of what forgotten as if it never once had ever been...of...there no not never...eye-limb useless recognition...surface resists traces in the dark a dim sense a tear of some feel extraction of blood some surface tension...forgets it forgotten of...false start begin again yet lacking vigor as before...adrift in dark as if once having disappears from it till all but recollect of white flash of surface tension...light source unknown it cannot truly discern...yet still yet nothing there nothing ever there...as was before...absent as if to say that all fallen in sunderance is merely a reflect without origin or...eye-limb cannot adjust yet what of when in what lack a river of shadow flows throughout what matter...steps forth to surface tension of...what surface tension of...what light when the eye cannot adjust the eyes cannot adjust...motion unto waste...motion unto...there nothing there...reaches out for surface...echo... echo of the nothing forth...yet breath as before...the rise & fall of the breath that...nothing in that...conveys much the same as the pulse bulb in the breast beating in time to...yet absent of...false start begins again with vigor lack as if to retrace...utter dark yet utters no...traces surface...false start begins again...there nothing there…never other…never other than should once was as...another never of…no not once whereof shut down to…an other than a lapse... breakage point where broken stolen from some other silhouette…it follows afterward...once not no of in or with or of whereof…stillness to touch grace how of it graven… tidal as...nothing of the matter being nothing of the being non-other if…to touch once...all of in din reflect shadowy devoured… whispers of none throughout where faculty of something never held…subtle flow of blood entity of silhouette silently throughout…stings just a little here or there...blind to taste it-speak solace of demise where cast dice blossom into obsidian flowers an outstretched palm...bones to warp as of before when of the before nor less…dead echo… stun grip of vertiginous...of the matter being of non other than collapse taken from commence a frozen as if to no not viable...lapse then of as was before as it were before…were-once where it long shadow fall upon where of the intrinsic stings just a little as…in dim reflect...subtle flow…to touch grace a withering hand traces throughout from outset of…final reek emanates from...not a trace of other than as if to whisper beneath the breath…as once was should...as once-were never other…it follows afterward...a little here or there…here or there of the commence what no matter...the acrid reek of final as…shadowy devour until…as was once should…as should…it follows afterward...a dead blind weight as if there ever were any other than…graven flow of funereal bone bite snare of...a taste never yet known…cannot be known… cannot ever have been...knuckles to crack crack stun of exhale abortive lapse…no not once whereof collision breakage point stolen from some silhouette...cracked static laughter pierces the… nothing to begin from nothing to follow in as if to...never other than once should as was once should once-as if to other than...forgotten the exist smeared across as of blood as of as of it nothing in that or...stings just a little a silhouette echoing silently throughout...it follows afterward…false start begins again...sees eye see end now of throughout it observes…of the no way how nor of for the ending sightless...upon as was before redundant to trace… breathless throughout cold speech listless eye ever…closes reveals nothing… opens to dark chasm of none...eye to bend as if to lock a frozen shadowing...trace as no as if all falls collapse eye will in taint...what as if to…eye does not…sees end broken fragments of nowhere from to trace…it dense as...eye sees end in asking of till given nothing of throughout... redundant lights to trace…reveals nothing other than nor of…shadow nothing echo lapse it...end now of throughout where static see eye end...closes once more reveals nothing either other than...speech listless ever eye…never the of or if what am shall breathe when see eye end see eye what yes an end...yet eye does not… cannot…now or of throughout…redundant to trace...closure cold listless reveals nothing more…bleeds static of the end till now...ever eye in foreign taint…closes eyelids…subtle fragment subtle taste…cold speech listless ever...given nothing of…reveals nothing of…eye as ever was before…cannot…for the ending sightless...it wishes for the dream... for the of for the end of an ending of which when all of once at once still never yet once aware in glimmer...of shadow-light breaking throughout obsolete closure as if to having of the meat that once sufficed now turned to maggot feed of the depth of all align...pierce where lessened the abort of night cast before the superseded sky a...a forage for in of what which terse wind...echo through the membrane’s colourless obsolete...appeal...where sunlit tint shadow of final orchids bleed out...taken from what of...what of till taken from given unto as if to utter once were not enough of it let it forgets it...till end till none of none...till end remark upon but once listless collapse into whereof in it...of which all sudden as if to having in nor other forgotten lapse cull of...loses the bite of which cleft diameter in which a circulate of animal teeth bared to long forgotten...breakage of bone solace collision drift itches to be done it...strips away the skin of breathing...nothing of whereof cold speech a deft hand the restless unto follow...as none till end repeats itself over & over from out of passage nothing breakage of light a faculty of abortive cold shadow shimmering beneath the lapse of skin fragratory...it held from what matter...utter distance of in the cold weight of distance nothing of none till end...it sayeth nothing of passage from where animal shale breaks throughout...depth end reckless dissolve in razor meat a spinal affluence in taint closure zero eye of zero point...from what of taken given from revision till end whereof all sudden nor other cull passage from diameter of which in circulate skinned the hyenic frenzy of subtle tears that vaporize upon contact with the other of the restless unto follow as none till end is the forgotten chamber of long shadow dissolve in taint closure...echo trace what if alone...upon where what where what once was...taint what stun collect...ever-breathe of tilt...final in the aisles of speech...din recollect transport till nothing ever...lapse here a once more...till nothing ever...ever of...bleeds in the swim of nocturnes frozen matter...dead teeth scattered as of seed before whereafter where light once no not ever was...as was found...adrift in...mirage taste dim ice blood of the recollect...burns all the way down to the centre spit it out spinal lock it final as...remnant of fossil tears whereof still shatter it sees no dawning/ dawning...adrift in yes yet of collision taste of nothing ever was unspoken call it... dressage of final exigent cold wind a-breathe where sudden as wrought the ever-less of bone reduced to shrapnel colours the like of which have never once echoed from...to the centre from out of where than other if in in closes the door ever as if to shadow upon where subtle charge is a broken as was before it came...till unsung shadows deprivation of...skulled all to once then of as if to motion unto speech forgotten tryst of...as was found...fossil tears a tearing of meat whereby the bone’s tragedy is revealed...to the centre...doused by butcher’s wand a glint of cold steel a sudden as if to nothing ever to claim...never once echoed from...dance what where what of...what of what if what sung what of it what final ash till taste abandon collect of all distances to trace...beyond yet buried in...in the null & void...epi-centre forgot it forgotten as of ever neither left nor other...have of sought where other than...descends into no other placement/ desires the other breath of which till escapade eye...ruptures upon the tangential abort where some if till cleft eye waste & wanton blessed the papyrus taste...burned of in reclusion...observes now through a window of all vertigo flames to catch where light breaks slowly bone stone mercury...embers to suffice yet of in sickness fallen blade upon to impart fallen upon the blade of it unsung ever...black underwater skull relapse...the eyelids once separated reveal a salvo of tears that never flow other than inwardly upon a candle/ slowly extinguished...
Michael Mc Aloran was born in Belfast (1976). He is the author of a number of collections of poetry, prose poetry, aphorisms and prose, most notably Attributes (2011), Of Dead Silences (2013), Un-Sight/ Un-Sound (delirium X.), gnOme books (2014) and EchoNone (Oneiros Books, 2015). In 2017, Editions du Cygne published longshadowfall and catascope was released 2018, also by Editions du Cygne, with further titles, all null having, nowhereon, cold zero reflect by VoidFront Press in 2018. 2019 saw the release of (dead tones) by Black Editions Press. He is forthcoming in 2020 with Infinity Land Press and Ragged Lion Press, (U.K). He lives and breathes in Co. Clare, Ireland. His blog, echo chamber, can be found here: https://mcaloranmichael.blogspot.com